It’s a boy! It’s a girl! Just like that I became a Mom in September 2019. I waited so long for this very moment and was slapped in the face with an abundance of love and sleepless nights. When we brought them home, we had no clue what we were doing. All I knew was our life changed dramatically. As the months have gone by my husband and I have had many lessons, opinions, and dirty diapers.
With this massive life moment, as a new Mom I have felt like I needed permission for everything at this point. “Do you mind if I take a shower”?”Could you watch the babies while I do laundry”? “Can I get a moment just to myself”? I am learning that motherhood can be not only time consuming but it’s also a loss of yourself.
I mourn the loss of who I used to be, yet I am so in love with these tiny humans and wouldn’t change it for the world. Isn’t that funny? I quit my 19 year career where I was not the happiest, however I enjoyed leading people. My husband and I decided that I stay home due to the load of twins for our parents and I overall wanted to be with them for a few years. The decision was hard and I was a hot mess after I quit. I think I ugly cried for a few days. I gave myself permission to mourn my old self and I was able to slowly transition into mom buns and nike sweatpants. Don’t get me wrong I still try to put on some rouge here and there. To all the Moms out there trying to fit into their new role, I see you! I am with you and I know at times it feels overwhelming, but you were made so Devine and it’s okay to not always be okay.
Xo,
Becca
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